I am slowly understanding what it is exactly that God wants me to do with my life. The past few months has been a roller-coaster ride of ups and downs of what I think God wants me to do. Most of the time I misunderstand or refuse to listen, then sometimes a moment of clarity hits.
About an hour after the new year struck, I had a moment of clarity. I finally “got it” and fit all the pieces of the puzzle together that God has left me. For a long time, I had it narrowed down to four choices for a career/vocation: theology, philosophy, classics and literature/English. I’ve flip flopped over the place going back and forth between them. As I said, I finally “got it.” I think it was a combination of God showing me how dense I was and the pressure of choosing a major soon that made it all “click.”
I truly believe that God has called me to be a theologian (that is where the philosophy & theology fits in), but He has also blessed me with the talent to write and that is the part that I’ve been trying to fit into the whole plan. Last night I decided that theology & English was the way to go, that’s how writing fits it (I study religion & lit and write on the side). This is where God shows me my denseness. Then God struck me with the very simple realization. I can be a theologian and write, I don’t need to be an English major for that. So in a very anti-climatic way in the early hours of the morning, God showed me what He wants me to do. I kind of feel foolish for missing it now.